John and Chrissy Gorham support HCUK in the London Marathon
"I was diagnosed with oesophageal cancer last month and I am under the care of Tim Underwood and Andrew Bateman at Southampton General. My condition was diagnosed following an endoscopy when I did not
respond to anti-ulcer medication.
My wife, Chrissy, and I are keen runners. These days we focus on long distance (marathon upwards) off road runs but both of us have places for this year's London Marathon. I will be deferring my place whilst Chrissy tries for another good for age place which she will get if she runs under four hours. She has managed that in the
past three years beating my marathon best time by a minute or so a couple of years ago (least said the better!).
Chrissy will be running for Heartburn Cancer UK with the aim to raise funds for the charity and awareness
of the condition.
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" It is good to be able to run for a smaller charity and one that we now have an affinity with”.
We have a few running events lined up to hone some speed as well as endurance - Cambridge Half at the
end of this month and Salisbury 10 in March. I hope to tootle round those too assuming I feel up to it. As
we ran our last marathon at Portsmouth just before Christmas Chrissy will aim to run a couple of longer
distance runs before London Marathon on 24 April just to make sure the endurance legs are still there."
Chrissy ran the Cambridge Half Marathon on Sunday (28 February) - her first run that far since we did the Portsmouth Coastal Marathon a few days before Christmas - and she ran 1:48:53. That is a typical half marathon time for her and using the simple calculator of doubling your half marathon time and adding 20 minutes indicates a sub-four hour marathon is possible. So far, so good. As well as pounding out some more training miles Chrissy has the Salisbury 10 mile race in mid March and the Compton 20 mile race in early April on the calendar.
March 14th update
Chrissy ran the Salisbury 10 on Sunday in 1:21:58 so is staying on course for a sub 4:00 time in London at the end of next month. One more long event to do at the beginning of April and a few more hard training miles as the clock ticks down to London. Less than six weeks to go.
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Chrissy's preparations are on course for the London Marathon on Sunday week. Chrissy ran her last long run before the event participating in the off-road Compton 20 mile run on Saturday. Her time of 3:41:52 was quicker than in previous years maybe because John was not running with her! In broad terms 20 miles off-road equates to 25 miles on Tarmac so fingers crossed running a time of around four hours in London is possible. Good luck Chrissy!
London Marathon Day
On a chilly but virtually perfect day for marathon running Chrissy ran an excellent 3:54:07 at the London Marathon on Sunday 24 April. Given her disrupted preparations for this year's event it was particularly pleasing to run a slightly faster time than last year and achieve a fifth successive good for age time giving her a place in next year's race.
Chrissy has raised over £3,000 in sponsorship for Heartburn Cancer UK thanks to some very generous friends, family and other kind people who have visited her fund raising page and left donations. Thank you to all of you as this money will be put to good use to help raise awareness of oesophageal cancer and fund research to treat the condition.
In the meantime John's treatment is going well, if tiring at times, and by good fortune he had a week's rest from chemotherapy last week so he was able to cheer on Chrissy from the side of the course and celebrate her success at the finish.
All being well both John (who deferred his place this year) and Chrissy will be on the start line for the 2017 London Marathon. There's an incentive for both and great way to "get back to normal!"
I was diagnosed with oesophageal cancer in January this year. Since then I have been on a course of chemotherapy which should be completed around the end of June. It has been a six months of change. Aside from the surprise of the diagnosis it has been becoming accustomed to life regulated by clinicians and feeling steadily unenergised as the treatment progresses. Fortunately I have not suffered too many significant side-effects so I have been able to keep reasonably fit and healthy during the treatment.
I am a runner. Now instead of contemplating long runs each weekend of 20 to 30 miles it is more 3 to 4 miles maximum. Instead of feeling able to run any time it is managing to get out when I feel up to it. It is frustrating but adjusting to what I can comfortably do and recognising this has helped me as a coping strategy. Running helps to keep my mind and soul together.
There seem to be some parallels with cancer treatment and long distance running. It is a marathon not a sprint. There are low points, difficult and at times painful periods. The goal is successful completion and the route is a challenge to mind and body to achieving that. I know I am still in the early stages and that more, and unknown, pitfalls lie ahead but I find it helpful to meet these with mind to the finish line. I know it is not always easy!
So there are just a few weeks to go with this course of chemotherapy then some tests and scans and probably a little rest before the next course of treatment. It is like the first feeding station appearing on the horizon.
Another month on and one course of chemotherapy nearly completed. Phew! I have a scan coming up and then a get together of the team looking after me in Southampton to decide on the next course of treatment. So far apart from having much lower energy levels I am lucky enough to not have had too many significant side effects once the immediate intravenous infusion and steroid ones have worn off - in about a week.
My running has continued to be compromised but when I do feel OK to give it a go I find four or five miles enough. Breathlessness in the first half mile flags that it is not just white blood cells that are reduced with the chemotherapy but also the oxygen carrying red blood cells too. What I have learned is not to push myself to the limit but to work within sensible boundaries. That also feels like a good philosophy for life. I suppose every new experience teaches you something and this illness and the toxic treatments are no different.
After a few months of losing weight I am getting back to a more typical weight. I am finding it easier to eat and I have regained my appetite. From a long time of sensible eating switching to a high calorie, high fat diet has worked well. Now I need to do some muscle toning. My legs are fine but my upper body and arms are a bit weedy. I am a typical runner.
Walking has become a more attractive proposition. You do not need so much puff and the pace is much more even. It has helped me to get some fresh air and exercise in proportion to my energy levels. I find being in open countryside uplifting. It is an excuse for energy snacks for those all important calories. It also has a feeling of achievement.
My wife, Chrissy, has continued to run in some events since the London Marathon where she helped to raise some sponsorship running for HCUK. Even now when she does she flies the flag as you can see.
Another month on and a good one too as I have been treatment free since the beginning of July. Resting from treatment has given me the chance to recover some energy. Add to that I generally feeling better although it seems odd to feel OK but still be so unwell. However, life is about being in the moment and at least we have an opportunity to catch up with family and friends and get out and about.
I strongly believe that I feel better both physically and psychologically when I exercise. So far as running is concerned the last month has seen a bit more puff return, apart from going uphill. I have moderated my running desire as I need to retain some calories for weight gain. That has happened and I am back to around my normal weight.
It is good to be able to run up to 10k without too much effort. That is about my maximum. I will walk 21k in the same event Chrissy will be running 50k in a couple of weeks. That should help to take my mind off what I could have been doing. It will probably take me about the same time too. Walking seems to work well. We had a week on the Dorset/Devon coastal path earlier in the month and the bracing air (ignoring the rain showers) combined with feeling of freedom on the cliff tops was very therapeutic.
Life is currently a mixture of feeling good (that is when I stay in the moment) and feeling anxious about what happens next. That should be clearer in August. Until then I will enjoy the summer!
Since my last update at the end of July a lot has happened. And a lot of it has been good.
On the medical front the scans I had in July/August showed marked improvement over the ones before and during my chemotherapy treatment. That fortunately means that surgery to remove tumour and some affected lymph nodes can be done. It offers the best chance of a long term outcome which helps to balance the fears and anxieties associated with the procedure.
On the personal front I made a good recovery from the chemotherapy. By the beginning of August I was getting my energy levels back and by the end I was more or less back to feeling fit and well. This has been reflected in my running - a personal barometer of well being - as I have managed longer distances comfortably which helps to maintain good spirits. Last weekend we did a seven hour run/walk in the Chilterns which is getting much more back to normal. Given that my surgeon doesn't want me to add any more weight it's also a good way of using any surplus calories.
As I've said before it is a curious feeling being able to live a normal life but know that that I'm seriously ill. I guess it's better that way but there is a part of me that thinks it's strange that I will have to made to feel unwell in order to be as well as I feel currently. I have occasional discomfort eating but experience tells me which foods are best to avoid.
The next phase is daunting but I believe that mental as well as physical preparation is the best approach. Being quite squeamish I am not too keen to explore the detail of the procedure. I expect pain and discomfort. I expect to feel frustration whilst I am recovering. I need to keep in mind that this is temporary and like the two thirds through a marathon focus on crossing the finish line and how good I feel then.
It's all about being as physically fit, as healthy, as positive and support to keep it that as possible.
As the countdown to surgery day gets into single digits I have found it beneficial to find things to occupy time and whilst some of those include me exercising I discovered just as much distraction and fun could be found watching others doing the hard work and simply observing with a "full fat" Coke (for calorific purposes only) in hand.
Such an occasion it was last Friday. A couple of months ago Mimi mentioned a corporate charity fund raising mudathon event that HCUK would be beneficiary of would be taking place in woods and through mud in deepest Surrey. As both Chrissy and I are keen runners it raised our attention levels. Mimi immediately banned me from even thinking of participating but the next best thing was to get Chrissy on one of the HCUK teams. In truth a mudathon has little appeal to me as anything more than a stile or a kissing gate on an off-road run is sufficient obstacle to make me moan and groan so I happily accepted the role of supporter.
A dry bright morning disguised what was to come. It's fair to say it ended a wet muddy morning for all who took part. Paragon Consulting who organised and excellently hosted the day had well over 200 participants mostly in teams representing their companies. Most of the participants were younger, and in many cases a lot younger, than Chrissy but she competed and completed the course and says she enjoyed every minute. A few photos below seem to reflect this.
The course may only be 7k long but its 100 or so obstacles from natural mudslides into muddy streams to clambering up the height of two shipping containers and scrambling down netting makes it a splendid opportunity for a "personal worst" over the distance.
As a bucket list activity for me it doesn't make the shortlist but I would go and support Chrissy again!
Thank you Paragon for helping to raise some much welcomed funds for HCUK and thank you HCUK for giving Chrissy the chance to try something new. I'm sure the scratches, bumps and bruises will clear up soon.
October was one of the significant months of my life. In fact it might be the most significant one so far.
It began on 04 October when I was admitted to University Hospital Southampton to have my oesophagus and some lymph nodes removed. It ended with me still feeling a bit battered, low on energy and learning how to eat in my "new normal" life.
When surgery was first discussed my surgeon, Tim Underwood, said that he usually told his patients that they should prepare themselves in the same way that people need to in order to run a marathon and make a good recovery. In my case, having run well over 50 marathons, and hoping to run many more, he told me to stay as fit and healthy as I could. That was easier said than done when I went through six sessions of chemotherapy but on the good days between infusions and after I finished the course I ran as far as I could. In September we did two marathons on the Chilterns and Cotswolds. I was not only marathon fit but as fit as I could be going into surgery.
When Tim said prepare to run a marathon I think this is understatement. I am not sure even the Mont Blanc Ultra or Marathon de Sables would measure up to major surgery as the participation and recovery are far harder but the strategies to deal with them are similar.
To prepare for a marathon you need to have confidence in not only your physical strength and endurance but also your mental ability to deal with pain and discomfort to complete the course. You also need support and encouragement from family, friends and advisers. Having a high level of support improves confidence and provides motivation. There are many similarities between preparing for, participating in and recovering from both a marathon and major surgery but there are also some differences particularly in recovery but let's focus on the similarities first.
For both being as fit as you can be and preparing for the distance is vital. With running you can practice, with surgery you cannot. Whilst chemotherapy helped me to "dig deep" the important message is “do not underestimate the distance”.
Mental preparations for both have many similarities. You know there will be pain and discomfort. You know that this will be when participating (for surgery I include the immediate days afterwards) but you need to look beyond that. You will finish the race or you will be discharged from hospital. It is a cliché to say that pain is temporary but it is. Discomfort will last longer but by then you are into recovery.
Recovery is about listening to your body. With marathon running I have always had the philosophy that is often counter to advice from coaches and running publications that exercising shortly after the run helps me. Maybe that is why I have only been an average club runner but I have, without tempting fate, been largely injury free. Similarly following my surgery I have found it useful to walk each day to not only use some muscles, gain some fresh air and change of scenery but also feel I was doing something more "normal". It is all about helping to get back to a regular lifestyle.
The recovery from surgery is clearly more challenging. Your body has taken a battering and the level of physical repair is far greater than running a marathon or more. Patience is the key.
The rewards for running a marathon and making a good recovery is looking forward to the next one. There the similarities with surgery disappear. I do not look forward to further surgery but if I did I think I have the tools to deal with it!
My recovery began the day after surgery and by the time I was ready to be discharged from hospital I had made major physical steps forward. The photos below show me the day after surgery, a couple of days later and the day before discharge a week after surgery. The clinical ans medical care I received was excellent although i was pleased to be going home.
Since discharge I have been heavily reliant on the ever faithful Chrissy which will not help her half marathon times later this month let alone her Portsmouth Coastal Marathon time next month. Having been an ever present at that event since it started seven years ago I have reluctantly deferred my place until 2017. I will be there in spirit.
Thanks also go to my children, family and friends for their support and encouragement. Special thanks are reserved for our two cats, Peter and Denver, who are regularly by my side when I am resting and, as you can see, when I vacate my place on the sofa they keep my seat warm - they know you know!
Another month on and another month into recovery. Marathons never take this long! It is impossible to feel incremental improvements in aches and pains, energy and general well-being. However, looking back over a couple of weeks or a month and all is going the right direction.
The aches and pains from surgery are now occasional discomfort usually when my body is under stress - eating too much, eating too quickly, doing a little too much etc. Painkillers were dropped at the beginning of the month. Comparing my chest discomfort with running it is similar to the discomfort when tripping (perhaps on a tree root - a common thing for me) tensing your muscles in some way that may prevent a fall and then tumbling to the ground bouncing off your chest.
My energy levels are returning being able to walk further and even jog a little in preparation for Christmas (see below). What often saps my energy is not walking or doing an occasional yoga session - excellent for strengthening abdominal muscles - but being with people. It is curious that having visitors or meeting up with people on consecutive days seems tire me more than physical exercise.
These combined equal improved well-being. Add to that now being able and wanting to do "normal" things - simple things that give esteem - and things look and feel good.
Like so much of this year getting back to normal or "new normal" when it comes to eating (frequently eating nutritious food in small quantities) it is a question of mental as much as physical fitness.
Now to running. Medical advice is "go for it" but listen to your body. If it hurts slow up or stop and try again later.
I have resisted so far trying a run just yet having promised myself a Christmas Day run/jog/brisk walk round the block, a couple of miles of so at most. From little acorns mighty oaks do grow. I think my main challenge will be chest discomfort. I will not be running fast enough to stress my body but I looking forward to feeling free again and another tick on my normal list.
In the meantime I have left running to Chrissy who completed a couple of half marathons in November and a multi-terrain marathon this past weekend in very decent times especially bearing in mind the toll that this year has taken on her. Next year we plan to be stronger together!
We wish everyone reading this a Merry Christmas and and Happy and Healthy New Year.
It is now a year since I was diagnosed with oesophageal cancer. It has been a roller coaster of a ride that has had many lows (principally diagnosis, chemotherapy and surgery) and some highs (mainly feeling OK in the summer and making a decent recovery from surgery). The roller coaster took its physical, mental and emotional toll, on me and my immediate family, but I have found that a focus on the future and looking beyond the present as a mainstay has been a very useful tool.
The past month has been generally very good. Apart from some difficulties swallowing on occasions, my recovery and progress towards full fitness has been excellent. I am pain free, have little discomfort from the surgery and feel more energised. So much so that running returned to my agenda on Christmas Eve. OK, at the moment it may only be up to 10k at a sluggish pace but it feels like a major step back towards normality. As my energy levels increase and my stamina returns I hope to get up to half marathon in the next few weeks and have a crack at the London Marathon in three months time, having deferred my place from last year and having paid three separate entry fees. I may have stopped accounting for a living but it's hard to take the accountant out of the man!
Christmas Day I celebrated by running in my HCUK top to fly the flag (see below). Since then the weather has got colder so it's long sleeves and two layers. For the first time in at least two years I have worn running tights to run in so it is either a colder winter or I am getting too sensitive. T-shirt and shorts will reappear at the earliest opportunity.
One amusing upshot of the Christmas Eve run was the subsequent purchase of a compression top. I found as I ran, well jogged, my chest "rattled about" a bit so we popped to Cotswold and bought a compression top to hold my chest firmly in place. Whilst trying on the top I tried a jog round the store but was encouraged to use the treadmill. I am an outdoor runner and in any visits to a gym I avoid treadmills. Once on the contraption it didn't occur to me to press "stop" when I had done enough so I jumped and put either foot on the (non-moving) sides with the treadmill still running. Please note this is not the way to do it. The compression top worked well on the trails and in some ways too well, decreasing my ability to breathe comfortably but once released from it I am sure it will help my lung capacity.
Getting back towards full fitness has been most encouraging. It's also good to be able to get out and about. It's great to have visitors but much better to be able to return the visits, go walking or get to football or rugby matches.
On the medical front following an X-ray swallow test to check out my difficulties swallowing I will need an endoscopic procedure to help widen or straighten my throat depending on what is causing the mild constriction. That sounds like fun!
For me February was a month of two halves to use the football metaphor. In the first half of the month I continued to improve in health and fitness from my operation. I was running more including the Portsmouth Coastal Half Marathon. Then the news in the middle of the month that I have cancer cells in lymph nodes in my neck. With that the second half of month took a bit of a downturn.
With follow up appointments I prepare for the worst and hope for the best. I suppose the results of the CT scan might be described as the best of the worst. The immediate view is that the rogue cells can be zapped by radiotherapy. However, before a final treatment plan can be drawn up I needed to have a PET scan and see my oncologist consultant. The first part of that is done and the second should be done in early March.
Bad news always knocks me back. What I show externally is not necessarily what is happening internally. The effect of setbacks is to start what might be called a mini-grieving process. I need a period of denial, anger, bargaining and depression before acceptance to face the current and immediate future with optimism.
I am told not to stop anything I am doing and it is no excuse to withdraw from the London Marathon in a couple of months time. However, the following day I got a head cold that converted itself into a chesty cough. Running and chesty coughs are not compatible. I am now back on the trails but as breathless as I was when I started running again at Christmas. The classic two steps forward and one back.
The Portsmouth run was not my quickest half marathon. In fact it was my slowest recorded half marathon. Chrissy, who accompanied me step by step, achieved the same. Slower even than the one we once ran in the Langdale Valley in the Lake District with its 1 in 3 hills. The time is irrelevant, running (or at least moving) for 13.1 miles was the achievement. Around nine or ten miles my puff started to fail me but I can report no ill effects. The weather was bitterly cold as can be seen from my apparel but for once at Portsmouth it was a tailwind on the two mile homestretch on the way to the finish line. I have some more longer runs planned in March which I hope I will be able complete alongside the to be revealed treatment plan.
Chrissy will be lining up beside me for the London Marathon as well as tackling a 50 mile run on the South Downs in early April. I will help her with support at feeding stations along the route this year. I am so grateful to her for holding herself back and supporting me. This weekend my daughter, Helen, is running the Cambridge Half Marathon in the colours of HCUK.
If you would like to visit her Just Giving page you can find it at
Another example of two halves also came in February:
I was saddened to hear of Steve Hewlett's death. His broadcasts on PM with Eddie Mair (and also in The Observer newspaper) were both illuminating and encouraging advancing the awareness of oesophageal cancer. I will miss him. His interviews on PM can be found at:- http://www.bbc.co.uk/programmes/p03m4q5s/episodes/downloads.
On the other hand I was uplifted by Andrew Marr's documentary, My Brain and Me, available on BBC iPlayer until the middle of March. He covers his recovery and dealing with the residual effects from the stroke he suffered four years ago. He has a model attitude and one expression that stays with me is - "there is no room for self pity". That is so right, so right.
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HELEN GORHAM RAISES FUNDS FOR HCUK
Helen Gorham ran the Cambridge Half Marathon on Sunday 5th March 2017 and will raise over £2,000 for HCUK from sponsorship, cake sale and generous support from her employer's, Cambridge University Press, charity matching scheme.
Helen says, "I wanted to help HCUK raise awareness and support research programmes into oesophageal cancer following my father's diagnosis of the condition last year. I am very grateful to all who have contributed to such a worthy cause.
"I was delighted to run 2:02:37 which is my best time by four minutes for the half marathon.
"In the photograph I am celebrating with a can of alcohol free lager for refreshment that all runners were rewarded with at the end of the race although I think I deserve something stronger!"
There is still an opportunity to sponsor Helen on her fund raising page - https://www.justgiving.com/fundraising/Helen-Gorham.
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